April 2012
93 posts
[Becoming the Patriarch] Pain
I have a throbbing pain
I need you
inside of me
deep inside.
I need to feel
your skin
against mine.
your breath
your lips
your heat
your heartbeat
in rhythm.
the blood flows
pounds through every cell
I need your
Dopamine
In my veins
I need you
to hold my demons down
and push deep inside
fill me up
and find me again
I need you
to push me out
to make me scream
and beg
I need
to pull your hair
to leave teeth marks
I need you
to struggle
and ask for more
I need
to reach deep inside of you
open you up
fill you up
I need you
to scream fuck me harder
and I can’t take anymore
simultaneously
I need
to blur the line
of where you start
and I end
until it is unrecognizable.
I need
to hear it from your mouth
all the perverted things you want me to do to you
I need
to hear you moan
and beg
I need
to hear you tell me you want me
so I can deny you
I need you
to pleating with me
when you have no more
left to give
I need you
to become an animal
raw
insatiable
demanding
thirsty
impatient
a tiger pacing its cage
patiently waiting its master
to give it its next meal
I need you
A Kid Called Dreamer
Birds In Row
:this is what I’m talking about….: :but smitty you just said the same thing about all the 8-s rap you just post and wtf is this hardcore and what was that emo crap you posted this morning. you weird.: :yes, yes I am thank you very much! and please ignore the voices in my head as they talk amongst themselves. lolz:
Maybe it could leave me happy, maybe it could leave me broken. One thing is sure- it won’t leave ignorant. And if I have one fear, it’s to lay on regrets with no way to sleep before the sunset. Haunted by souvenirs of days spent hoping that life ain’t useless for a kid still dreaming. Life won’t build me no jail.
nvc
I was listening to the chapter on connecting our feelings to our needs today, where Rosenberg was talking about how critism and blame statements are connected to an unmet need. He spoke about this activity where you look at all the blame and critisms you use on a regular basis and then to make an obervation on what someone has done that was a stimulus for those words. And then he goes on to say…
and this is the gold:
We help them see “all criticism, all blame is a tragic expression of an unmet need.”
that we can be more truthful by saying what the need is then any words which are criticising or blaming. This is hard because most people don’t have a language of needs. But this exercise helps them so they go down the list and find the trigger and then help them translate this into an unmet need.
- (redacted): Let's forget how crappy this stupid left wing Thomas Kindcade painting is. This movement is nothing more than race baiting and you are enabling it by posting this. It's one thing to be counter culture, entirely another to incite a race war.
- (sgb): the race war was incited hundreds of years ago and hasn't taken a day off since. I'm hardly starting anything
- (redacted): incited hundreds of years ago? Ha! See, this is the fundamental problem I have with everything you've said on this topic so far. You act as if white American's invented racial problems.
- (sgb): yes. that is how I am acting.
“How strange it is. We have these deep terrible lingering fears about ourselves and the people we love. Yet we walk around, talk to people, eat and drink. We manage to function. The feelings are deep and real. Shouldn’t they paralyze us? How is it we can survive them, at least for a little while? We drive a car, we teach a class. How is it no one sees how deeply afraid we were, last night, this morning? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret without knowing it? Wear the same disguise?”
—Don DeLillo (via creatingaquietmind)
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